More thoughts on grace and Christianity to come soon…But for now: 

I have an uneasy feeling that the devil is trying to kill me.

Actually, I’m kind of serious. It’s interesting because I’ve also felt this way before all 3 of my trips to Germany. I’ve almost been in car accidents each time. Once I was driving down Pacific towards 144th and I had to slam on my brakes because of a car suddenly stopping in front of me and I remember looking in my rear view mirror and watching the semi behind me slam on its brakes, almost in slow motion, and skid sideways into the other lane in order to not hit me. I actually thought, “I am going to die.” And I was very calm. That was right before I left. There have been similar instances.

Two nights ago I was driving on Hwy 133, and there was a steady flow of traffic behind me, in front of me, and coming toward me, all going about 65 mph. All I could see were headlights and suddenly I saw something passing through the light and realized that 3 deer were nervously running across the highway…about 25 feet in front of me…going 65 on a busy highway. And….again…I got really calm and swerved into the other lane…fitting perfectly into the space between the last two moving deer. The oncoming traffic had emptied just at that moment, for me to swerve. If it would have been 1/2 second later I would have probably died. There would have been nothing to do but hit a deer head on at 65, or hit the oncoming traffic.

Last night I left Anthony’s house and was on the road, going about 45, when again…something flickered in the oncoming headlights….deer legs. I slammed on the brakes, my car squealed on the cement, and I hit the deer. I HIT IT! Thank God (seriously) that I was down to about 10 mph at that point and the poor deer rolled over, got up, and ran away. I watched him to make sure he was running okay. Ahhh…I just keep thinking about that fear in the deer’s eyes. I hate things like that. Fear in the eyes of someone/thing that doesn’t understand what’s happening. That’s something I can’t handle. Victims. Anyway, my car is fine, I’m fine, and the deer is fine.

It might seem dramatic, but I should have died 2 nights ago, and the deer should have died and I should have been hurt last night. But here I am, like nothing happened. I think there’s more going on than we’d like to admit sometimes, maybe things are a little more serious and there are some battles being waged that we don’t know about or like to think about.

Apparently, I have more to do here.