I just changed all my names to Jodi Cooper in my email and whatever else, including this site.

Today I get married!!

And why am I doing this at 2 in the morning? Because I can’t sleep because I am so excited!!!!!!!!!

Four more days until the wedding! Tyler & I can NOT wait until we can actually just be home together. I’m sure many of you also remember that feeling right before your wedding date. Its like this invisible line you cross over. Right now you are on one side, and in four 24-hour spans you will be on the other. Forever united in the eyes of the Lord, and promised to one another for the rest of your lives. Wow. Four days until my life is that significantly changed. I can’t wait.We live 30 minutes from one another right now, and it is horrible to leave one another at the end of the day. I’ve heard it said many times, and know it personally now, how unnatural it is to be without that person. You are truly part of one another, and feel a little weird when that person is gone. I think that it might sound as if we are losing part of ourselves to meld into one, but what Tyler & I have been so excited to discover is that as we grow closer together, we actually are becoming more and more who we truly are. Having a man that wants to lead me and provide for me and to lovingly guide me toward truth and beauty in life is making me into more of a woman than I have been before.

It’s a great design, this love thing.

And…..back to my last day of work….

15 days till “Jodi Collicott” ceases to exist.

Sometimes I get a little nostalgic, and a little sad to see the name I’ve always known go. Its not that I’m sad about marrying the most amazing man in the universe, but I’m a sentimental person.

For example, I was just telling this amazing man that when I was 9 years old, I remember standing by my window, looking out through the dusty glass up at the moon on the night of October 22 and saying to myself, “This is the last day of my life that I will be single digits. I’ll never be single digits again…”

And I’ve been told that when I was 5 years old, and had just started kindergarten, I came home one day and said something to my mom like, “So mom, how does it feel now that all of your kids are in school?”

So you see, I really have no hope in these things.

Seriously, though, I’m learning to know and trust that God has me exactly where He desires me to be at this moment. He is working all things together for my good. And not for what I think is “good,” but for my true good. For growing to be more aligned with God’s heart and Will. It’s painful sometimes, but good. (Don’t get me wrong, I’m not relating marrying Tyler to painful growth)

After all, the Lord cares about every detail of our lives (Psalm 37), and I believe it.

Even that time that I wanted to buy a dress when I was in 7th grade, and it was on sale, but they didn’t have my size, and I said to my mom matter-of-factly, “I guess that God didn’t want me to get that dress.”

I’m a feeler. What can I say.